I hope all is well. I have friends with spiritual experiences similar but different. One such I wrote a song about, changing her name on her request:
"My friend Phoebe was a rationalist
But paranormal curious
Got visions vivid details
What her classmates saw next day
Approached it like a science
Moving trinkets off of tables
With her mind, which now was doubting what was real anyway
The spirit world slipped open
Knew some tricks to make them talk
Taunting her of suicide
Heads of Egyptian gods
Living out her truth - took in a broken winged Crow
But so self consumed - found the bird in the porch - Froze!
Witches can’t fly, but I know how… watch!
Freedom to ignore consequence
Extended to dirty dishes
Stuffed inside an unplugged freezer
Spawning maggot dreams
The Christians she met crossed her out,
Or stupidly thought it was sweet
But gnawing despair
Feeding off her,
Drove her to her knees
She would make no promises, no deal to ever change
Figured what’s to loose if she’ll die this year anyway?
A prayer to not sure where, to take away this damn, war
Fought inside her head, as colors froze on the floor
Witches can’t fly, but I know how… watch!
Instant in the morning
Felt the sponge in her brain squeezed and drained
The colors returned soaking
Proof that someone cared to clean
Is it sin she stole a Bible
When who owned it wouldn’t read her a thing
Of anti-gravity love come to fix her broken wing
Love accept us on the floor!
But don’t leave us frozen on the floor!
Are you my broken winged crow?
You’re welcome to my upside down home,
Leave dirt to walk on windows
Hold on, we’re leaving the ground!"
All this to say, she has a bit of a different darker take on the motives of these Egyption gods based on her experience. They may not be who they appear to be. And I don't want to come off as one of those judgement pricks, but out of genuine care and concern, maybe hang out in the Hebrew prophetic books a bit and wrestle with their warnings about other gods and occultism practices. I just don't want you to become like my friend who suffered a worse mental health state in the end through experimenting with these practices and Egyption gods.
Peace brother. May the one true God keep your PTSD away.
Oh boy, that's a dangerous question, I can definitely nerd out about the OT books! The best of course is the whole thing in context, but I feel there's a few passages to just consider meditating on.
1.At the end of Jeremiah's ministry he was put into a very awkward position being asked by the remaining Judeans whether or not to go down to Egypt or stay in the Babylon occupied Judea. He told them to stay, they got pissed and kidnapped him to go to Egypt with them, and in Jeremiah 44 he gives his final warning to them and they give their final response.
2. The story of Naaman and Elisha in 2 Kings 5... I feel it relates a lot for your search for healing and Naaman's response to healing is worth pondering.
3. The first 3 or 4 chapters of Hosea tell one of the most provocative performance art requests (definitely not Christian radio friendly!)... God telling a prophet to marry a prostitute and then buying her back when she leaves him to go back to prostitution. It's one of the most tragic but beautiful allegories in the whole Bible God uses to paint a picture in very human terms what it feels like when he is "cheated on" but also of his relentless love to keep buying us back (chokes me up as someone trying to break a 2 generation curse of adultery and broken homes).
After that I always recommend my person fav of Micah as a nice TLDR version of prophetic books, as it nicely summarizes most of the themes of the major prophets but in only 7 chapters... I saw a bit of a narrative arch in it and it inspired me to make a whole rock opera based off it (which I have been posting a graphic novel version of the lyrics to on my Substack as "How to Cure Snake Oil"... of course it's more of a poetic and personified interpretation... like Hebrew Midrash... but it could be a nice companion to chew on the text in a different light.)
So yeah, like I said, I definitely get too nerdy, and musical on the subject (just trying to be Weird Al of prophetic books!) but I'll shut up now, haha! Peace to you on the road ahead :)
Yeah I don’t want to be judgmental either but it seems like it’s Asmodeus basically following him around now. However, I don’t think I’d say Egyptian gods necessarily have to be demonic. Tolkien and C. S. Lewis like writing about Norse and Greek gods and they’re the pinnacle of American evangelicalism, I don’t think Egyptian has to be demonic just because it’s Egyptian, that seems kind of racist. I just think people need to be in the right frame of mind. I think most pagan entities can be something good or bad depending on the same context, but I don’t think it’s the same being if it’s good or bad. I think after doing the Devil ritual Thoth definitely became like Asmodeus or something if it wasn’t already. I don’t think he was supposed to do a Devil ritual like that. I mean, didn’t Jesus tell Satan to go away, not invite Satan over? I think really, Satan is already there, you don’t need to summon Satan, just tell Satan to go away, that’s the proper Devil ritual.
I hope all is well. I have friends with spiritual experiences similar but different. One such I wrote a song about, changing her name on her request:
"My friend Phoebe was a rationalist
But paranormal curious
Got visions vivid details
What her classmates saw next day
Approached it like a science
Moving trinkets off of tables
With her mind, which now was doubting what was real anyway
The spirit world slipped open
Knew some tricks to make them talk
Taunting her of suicide
Heads of Egyptian gods
Living out her truth - took in a broken winged Crow
But so self consumed - found the bird in the porch - Froze!
Witches can’t fly, but I know how… watch!
Freedom to ignore consequence
Extended to dirty dishes
Stuffed inside an unplugged freezer
Spawning maggot dreams
The Christians she met crossed her out,
Or stupidly thought it was sweet
But gnawing despair
Feeding off her,
Drove her to her knees
She would make no promises, no deal to ever change
Figured what’s to loose if she’ll die this year anyway?
A prayer to not sure where, to take away this damn, war
Fought inside her head, as colors froze on the floor
Witches can’t fly, but I know how… watch!
Instant in the morning
Felt the sponge in her brain squeezed and drained
The colors returned soaking
Proof that someone cared to clean
Is it sin she stole a Bible
When who owned it wouldn’t read her a thing
Of anti-gravity love come to fix her broken wing
Love accept us on the floor!
But don’t leave us frozen on the floor!
Are you my broken winged crow?
You’re welcome to my upside down home,
Leave dirt to walk on windows
Hold on, we’re leaving the ground!"
All this to say, she has a bit of a different darker take on the motives of these Egyption gods based on her experience. They may not be who they appear to be. And I don't want to come off as one of those judgement pricks, but out of genuine care and concern, maybe hang out in the Hebrew prophetic books a bit and wrestle with their warnings about other gods and occultism practices. I just don't want you to become like my friend who suffered a worse mental health state in the end through experimenting with these practices and Egyption gods.
Peace brother. May the one true God keep your PTSD away.
Which books should I read?
Oh boy, that's a dangerous question, I can definitely nerd out about the OT books! The best of course is the whole thing in context, but I feel there's a few passages to just consider meditating on.
1.At the end of Jeremiah's ministry he was put into a very awkward position being asked by the remaining Judeans whether or not to go down to Egypt or stay in the Babylon occupied Judea. He told them to stay, they got pissed and kidnapped him to go to Egypt with them, and in Jeremiah 44 he gives his final warning to them and they give their final response.
2. The story of Naaman and Elisha in 2 Kings 5... I feel it relates a lot for your search for healing and Naaman's response to healing is worth pondering.
3. The first 3 or 4 chapters of Hosea tell one of the most provocative performance art requests (definitely not Christian radio friendly!)... God telling a prophet to marry a prostitute and then buying her back when she leaves him to go back to prostitution. It's one of the most tragic but beautiful allegories in the whole Bible God uses to paint a picture in very human terms what it feels like when he is "cheated on" but also of his relentless love to keep buying us back (chokes me up as someone trying to break a 2 generation curse of adultery and broken homes).
After that I always recommend my person fav of Micah as a nice TLDR version of prophetic books, as it nicely summarizes most of the themes of the major prophets but in only 7 chapters... I saw a bit of a narrative arch in it and it inspired me to make a whole rock opera based off it (which I have been posting a graphic novel version of the lyrics to on my Substack as "How to Cure Snake Oil"... of course it's more of a poetic and personified interpretation... like Hebrew Midrash... but it could be a nice companion to chew on the text in a different light.)
So yeah, like I said, I definitely get too nerdy, and musical on the subject (just trying to be Weird Al of prophetic books!) but I'll shut up now, haha! Peace to you on the road ahead :)
Thank you, I'll check those out. Have you read Abraham Joshua Heschel's book on the prophets? I really enjoyed it.
I heard about it... was recommended by Tim Mackie of The Bible Project and on my list to check out eventually.
Yeah I don’t want to be judgmental either but it seems like it’s Asmodeus basically following him around now. However, I don’t think I’d say Egyptian gods necessarily have to be demonic. Tolkien and C. S. Lewis like writing about Norse and Greek gods and they’re the pinnacle of American evangelicalism, I don’t think Egyptian has to be demonic just because it’s Egyptian, that seems kind of racist. I just think people need to be in the right frame of mind. I think most pagan entities can be something good or bad depending on the same context, but I don’t think it’s the same being if it’s good or bad. I think after doing the Devil ritual Thoth definitely became like Asmodeus or something if it wasn’t already. I don’t think he was supposed to do a Devil ritual like that. I mean, didn’t Jesus tell Satan to go away, not invite Satan over? I think really, Satan is already there, you don’t need to summon Satan, just tell Satan to go away, that’s the proper Devil ritual.