Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part II

A Week Fighting to Get Out of the Mad House: An Epic Poem in 7 Installments

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[Typed the mornings of September 20-21, 2022 from notes written in crayon the previous week while on an involuntary hold at the psych ward at Pacific Grove Hospital in Riverside, California after a ketamine infusion therapy to treat the PTSD went bad, leaving the Poet more suicidal and self-hating than before it began, prompting the doctor to insist on a “5150” 72-hour hold.]

Check out part I here:

Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part I

Wednesday

6:41 AM

I need to get out of here.
Trying for today.

Had a hard time sleeping last night. They let me sleep in the TV room since my roommate was snoring like a chainsaw. The isolation room had a bright light so it wasn’t usable.

6:52 AM

I have the remote and have chosen the Food Channel,

Didn’t feel like watching the Queen’s funeral procession


7:08 AM

I am hyper-aroused. 
It is so loud here 
                                and 
                                              I am not getting my meds.

8:07 AM

Just overheard a woman refuse to fill out paperwork or identify herself. 
           She threatened the nurse with losing her job 
                       and 
                              talked about 
                                                       “sovereign” 
                                                                             something or other.

This crayon just broke again

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8:24 AM

Eddie who I played chess with is leaving troday.

8:31 AM 

New episode of “Storage Wars” set in Indio, CA started. Going to watch.

Allowed outside now.

Saw a bad psychiatrist over the phone for five minutes and he threatened to keep me here longer than 72 hours.


3:44 PM

Panicking now. They are saying I don’t have insurance coverage anymore. 

Called and it was cancelled on the 16th of August.

They say I can apply for charity.


Not sure of the time.

I have now been transferred to a more quiet wing. 

Fewer people. 

Not sure as many involuntarily-held people. 

So less rowdy


8:16 PM

They got the TV working. We can change channels now.

8:31 PM

Found a documentary on ancient giants in Sardinia… on the SciFi channel, of course.


9:53 PM 

The lady in this TV room wanted to watch TBN, a televangelist network.

Charlie Kirk interviewing John MacArthur. Charlatans!

Had a good session with Sally on the phone. 
Let her know of my hurt at parents’ unwillingness 	
                             
                           To help get me out of here.

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10:02 PM

Watching Queen news on CNN:

	“Pageantry Is Paganism”

                                  -	Realization on Royal idolatry

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The next day’s Installment will be published tomorrow. Listen to Dave talk about his experience here in Wednesday’s podcast:

Sally Interviews Dave About His Week In the Hospital