God of the Desert Books

God of the Desert Books

Share this post

God of the Desert Books
God of the Desert Books
Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part IV
User's avatar
Discover more from God of the Desert Books
We are the first-ever Psychedelic Zionist book publisher. We offer nonfiction, novels, and poetry. Our Substack features cultural essays, political polemics, satire, podcasts and other assorted experiments from a diverse group of writers.
Already have an account? Sign in

Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part IV

A Week Fighting to Get Out of the Mad House: An Epic Poem in 7 Installments

David Swindle 🟦's avatar
David Swindle 🟦
Sep 25, 2022

Share this post

God of the Desert Books
God of the Desert Books
Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part IV
Share

[Typed the mornings of September 20-21, 2022 from notes written in crayon the previous week while on an involuntary hold at the psych ward at Pacific Grove Hospital in Riverside, California after a ketamine infusion therapy to treat the PTSD went bad, leaving the Poet more suicidal and self-hating than before it began, prompting the doctor to insist on a “5150” 72-hour hold.]

Check out parts I, II, and III here:

God of the Desert Books is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.

God of the Desert Books
Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part I
[Typed the mornings of September 20-21, 2022 from notes written in crayon the previous week while on an involuntary hold at the psych ward at Pacific Grove Hospital in Riverside, California after a ketamine infusion therapy to treat the PTSD went bad, leaving the Poet more suicidal and self-hating than before it began, pr…
Read more
3 years ago · David Swindle
God of the Desert Books
Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part II
[Typed the mornings of September 20-21, 2022 from notes written in crayon the previous week while on an involuntary hold at the psych ward at Pacific Grove Hospital in Riverside, California after a ketamine infusion therapy to treat the PTSD went bad, leaving the Poet more suicidal and self-hating than before it began, …
Read more
3 years ago · David Swindle
God of the Desert Books
Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part III
Read more
3 years ago · David Swindle

Friday

6:44 AM

Last night my roommate Shawn who is detoxing was not well.

I went and got the nurse for him and couselled him. I gave him my empty journal and told him writing his feelings might help.

I felt his pain. I feel all the pain around me.

7:08 AM

My father refuses to support my appeal.

He signs on to the lie that I am having hallucinations.

I want to leave the family again.

A Swindle no more

8:26 AM

Ear plugs in and isolating myself in a quiet room.

My appeal is in an hour and a half.

9:15 AM

[Prazosin / minipress – written in pen by psychiatrist’s assistant, a drug recommendation]

Written by Cade, Nurse RN and assistant to Dr. Gandotra.

Recommends for the nightmares.

Had a good talk with him.

Seems sympathetic.

David Lynch’s Catching the Big Fish on transcendental meditation.

Switched to reading that when the Thorazine seemed to hit.

2:27 PM

My appeal was denied.

The nurse chose to go with the lie that I am hallucinating even though I refuted it. The doc can choose to release me anytime. Going to try calling Mike now.

“The pro-market agenda of the libertarians is by no means identical with the pro-business agenda of the Republicans.” – M. Lind, page 79, Up from Conservatism

After 5:00 PM

Dinner Now.

Talking with Sally and she said this place has a lot of terrible reviews online.

Going to ask Jon Bishop to look into this place some.

Investigative Journalism…

*****

Post-It Note:

951 275 8400

General #

I called patient advocacy

******

The next day’s Installment will be published tomorrow. Listen to Dave talk about his experience here in Wednesday’s podcast:

God of the Desert Books
Sally Interviews Dave About His Week In the Hospital
Listen now (33 min) | Episode 32 of God of the Desert Audio Podcast provides an explanation for the editor-in-chief’s absence for a week…
Read more
3 years ago · 1 like · 2 comments · David Swindle and Sally Shideler

God of the Desert Books is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.

Share

Leave a comment

Share this post

God of the Desert Books
God of the Desert Books
Dave Crashed Into the Cuckoo’s Nest, Part IV
Share

Discussion about this post

User's avatar
Why Far Right Men Love Laura Loomer
It is so simple and the entire conservative media project collapses when we acknowledge this fundamental reality.
May 12 • 
David Swindle 🟦
18

Share this post

God of the Desert Books
God of the Desert Books
Why Far Right Men Love Laura Loomer
13
Russia Is a Suicidal Slave State with a Terrible Culture
Putin is only a symptom. The moral values of the nation are the disease.
Mar 16, 2024 • 
David Swindle 🟦
36

Share this post

God of the Desert Books
God of the Desert Books
Russia Is a Suicidal Slave State with a Terrible Culture
7
The Real Reason J.K. Rowling Needs to Be Arrested Immediately
The bestselling author committed serious crimes to fuel her massive success.
Apr 4, 2024 • 
David Swindle 🟦
24

Share this post

God of the Desert Books
God of the Desert Books
The Real Reason J.K. Rowling Needs to Be Arrested Immediately
13

Ready for more?

© 2025 David Swindle
Privacy ∙ Terms ∙ Collection notice
Start writingGet the app
Substack is the home for great culture

Share

Create your profile

User's avatar

Only paid subscribers can comment on this post

Already a paid subscriber? Sign in

Check your email

For your security, we need to re-authenticate you.

Click the link we sent to , or click here to sign in.